12/30/01
I just realized I've fallen in love with the unspoken words.
I've been manipulating my feelings to accommodate what not
being said between the lines.
You don't need to carry a law book under your arm to realize
what doesn't appear there, simply should not be taken
seriously.
11/26/01
Sometimes I wish I could tuck the world under my rumpled
sheets to keep me company while the plastic stars I pinned
on the ceiling sing me lullabies.
All I ever want is the world to hear what I need to say, and it
should never repeat what it heard. Someone told me once I
should be happy with the world at my feet, not by my side...
10/16/01
If I could eliminate all the words wading around in my head, I
would definitely be rid of him; for those words, though
appearing innocent, they make me oblivious to everything,
everything but him.
09/01/01
A breath lingering on lips could lead to a thousand kisses...
if not careful.
08/19/01
It is as though there are two people living inside of me. One
just wants to be alone and she's happy with the norm, while
the other one struggles constantly wanting to get out. The
fights between them are getting louder and nastier each day.
Somebody, make them stop!
08/11/01
His grin is infectious. I itch to reach over to trace the
contours of his lips. I shouldn't, though, he'll know I'm
falling head over heels for him, and eager to... Never mind.
07/17/01
Sometimes, my skin vibrates of wants, wishing to bear your
marks, but my lips would not part to let words out to greet
you ears, and that's how it always goes where you're
concerned...
07/08/01
Sometimes I wish I weren't just an image in this paper
world, a thin guise of a watercolor dream that strives on
being just a transparent stain on the surface of this
monstrous reality.
06/11/01
All so-called faded memories, though securely sealed away,
somehow they manage to resurface, each and every one of
them, time and time again, you just never really know when.
06/04/01
I can imagine you're having a grand time erasing me from
your memories. That's all right with me, you know, for I
expected it. I was hoping it would be different since... never
mind.
05/07/01
I've tried many times to make something out of nothing, to
make it matter, but I couldn't seem to grapple on anything;
no sentimental scents to lead me to sweet memories that I
could hold on.
03/23/01
But the silence coming from you scares me more than the
monsters hiding underneath my bed, so I remain silent, as
silent as the teardrops welling up in my heart.
02/10/01
Never thought I would say this, I miss you terribly. Not to
discredit my own ability to judge characters, nor I deny that
you once loved me and I you. When things changed, you and I
changed to accommodate the situations. The hard part is
trying to forget...
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Musings 2001
